since you keep talking about what if i was in your shoes, if you actually did care you'd call. thats what i would have done. or at least check here to see if there's any hints. but doesn't seem like you're doing anything other than whine and nag at me on msn. and seriously, the emoticons aren't helping.

goodbye. and have a safe trip you. 

 wish you could see things from my perspective

 9th jan 2009 BMTC School 1

nothing is going right at all. what the hell. i just hope i have the strength to deal with everything.

From ziwei's blog,"Lord, please grant me the serenity to accept the things you cannot change, the courage to change the things you can and the wisdom to know the difference."
 i feel this quote is rather meaningful as it reminds us that we are not all powerful and i guess it in a way keeps us grounded. sure, we all try to change things for the better but once in a while, there just comes along something that we are powerless to do anything about and when that time comes, i pray that like in the quote, we are able to find the strength to accept that we are just not able to make a difference and therefore take it in your stride and live with it. hard as it seems, i know that this can be done, no matter how tiring it is. this brings me to another quote,

Isaiah 40:31 "those who hope in the lord will renew their strength. they will soar on wings like eagles, they will run and not go weary, they will walk and not be faint." 
this second quote might be familiar to all ac people who have heard it a million times in school, but yet, i feel that this verse speaks so much to us about trusting god with everything. i admit i haven't been able to fully trust god all the time, but yet, i try my best to. it reminds us that when we do not have the strength to change things, we can always count on god to be there for us and comfort us, and perhaps even help us to change the things that we are unable to, if it is according to his plan for us. whatever the case, it is comforting to know that we have him around always. 

in relation to my life, i guess this has been a pretty difficult time for me, with IB just 3 weeks away, and the many other things going on. i hope that i will be able to pull through and stay focussed on the things that are important, but at the same time not neglect the rest. and i guess this would be a good time to thank all those around me who have been there to listen to me during my emo moments all. thanks to all of you. (:

i wish i knew what was going on in your life

 hello sorry i haven't posted for so long.. things have been super busy and all with ioc and prelims coming one after the other.. and my house got renovated too so i had to do abit of moving as well.. olympics came and gone too.. it was great except that it kinda distracted me from my studying. haha well i guess i've been coping well with stuff over all.. prelims started today. (8/9/2008) lol english and econs paper 1. woke up with a bad start though. somehow, its interesting that no matter how hard my mum tried to wake me up today i refused to wake up. then i heard the sound of my guitar string breaking and i was suddenly wide awake. haha kinda shows the priorities in my life. haha the papers were fine i guess.. econs was easier than expected. hopefully all the papers are like that. but i guess as long as i study properly the papers will end up like that. haha owell. 2 papers down, 11 to go. in less than 14 hours it will be 10 papers and so on.. i just hope i can persevere that long. haha i end prelims on the 19th of september, then its all downhill hardcore mugging till the ib exams in november. haha i promise myself i will be ready for that one. can't wait for november 20th. thats freedom day for me! haha but i shall concentrate on getting through prelims first. haha okay to everyone who reads this, all the best for end years/ prelims/ A levels/IB exams! we're at the end of the year already and once we get through those we can take a well deserved rest till the year starts again. (ib year 5s remember to do your EEs)

sorry for the lack of paragraphing. haha

exams are here. and nationals in a 2 weeks time. this is probably the most busy time of the year already. i'm probably gonna try getting an extension for tok. hopefully i get permission.. ahh how to train and study at the same time? this is crazy.

600 im warm up, no fly
6x400 free, 1st 2 with paddles and pool bouy, 4 normal swim (this killed me)
400 com stroke moderate, fly change to free (i did im so it was free back breast free)
400 breaststroke kick
400 free pull 3 strokes kick 6 times (this was weird..)
400 back, 3 pulls 6 kicks
50 free all out (that we did twice coz the timings were off)

now that i look at it, i did so many 400s that i can't believe it.. haha and i'm kinda annoyed that for the first 50 all out, my time wasn't recorded. i'm pretty sure i did a 28.. damn.. that sucks.. well after training i went to wenhsin's place for class gathering.. it was good. even though not everyone was there, it was still good to just sit around and talk about the 2 years that we were a class. omg lowest o level msg in 10 years. we rock! hahaha this is how we always were. we were proud to be the worst. lol even during all the lectures after exams where we are told that we are the worst performers. hahaha owell we are the champion class! may we be brothers always. hahaha

4.6 gideon 2006. we own. lol

thanks for the memorable birthday dinner! :)

hallo. haha this is the first post i'm ever making here. well i just got back from church camp and just turned 18. lol guess its a pretty significant time to start blogging again. church camp was fun, but stressful from the 3 music sessions, i so need my own bass guitar if i'm gonna improve.. and i need to start studying for common tests too.. ahh what a sad life i have. haha owell.. i guess i should start work now. :)